The Life of an Escapist

hmmm

2006-05-10T16:42:20Z

So I am moved in with Kim and Schylar...yes the crazy baysie is living with a very in love couple. It is sickingly sweet and I love them to death.

HOWEVER, I think I totally fucked over any future friendship I might have with my exboyfriend....so I am very unhappy with myself right now. I hate myself for being so emotional. Ugh why do I fall in love so easily...it seems like this time last year I was unhappy because of a boy... I wish I could maybe get sexual emotions or romantic emotions taken out of me.....like sucked out of me...that would be nice..but if I did that i owuldn't be able to play PETRA in a little night music.

YES everyone (if you can) should come see me in "A Little Night Music" wher ei play Petra who is literally the sex symbol of the show. It is crazy. I get to kiss a really hot boy though 55 times before the summer is over though...heheheh I am not obsessed and did not tally up the number of kisses I get to kiss him though.

I am working at Tridac at the end part of the summer. So I will be home mid June.

I love everyone and hope they have a fabulous summer.

bleh

2006-03-15T05:06:28Z

down week

wolfie not my favorite show
supposed "bf" not paying attention to me really...why does this always happen...I don't get it

upside to week
EDMUND BAGNELL IS GOING TO VISIT ME

Spring break was relaxing. I love my parents and my doggies so much. I saw Footloose. I wasn't wowed, but they did a good job I guess. I dunno maybe I am too critical....being a theatre major and all.

Saw Miles and Jenny though...OH OH OH SETC went well I might work in MOntana or West Virginia this summer but I don't want to get my hopes up just yet.

XOXO to all!

woop

2006-03-07T01:08:57Z

How to make a Bambigurrrrl

Ingredients:

5 parts mercy

5 parts ambition

1 part ego

Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of wisdom

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

show

2006-01-18T03:45:13Z

Sylvia is February 15-19.

:-D

2006-01-17T04:27:07Z

I got Sylvia in Sylvia!!!

It is one of my dream roles.

I am a dog...yes that is right I am a dog and I bark.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Life is good right now.

:)

2005-12-28T05:47:08Z

I am so happy with life right now... I must memorize this feeling so I can go back to it whenever I am depressed.

I was so spoiled at XMAs this year... I don't deserve all the people who love me... I don't understand.

So I went to a party tonight and it was fun just chatting. I realized tonight that I really am quite a loquacious being.

I am going to Charleston on New Years Eve and staying with my BOYFRIEND!!!!! ROBBIE is his name btw... I AM SO EXCITED!!!! I have an outfit picked out and everything. I like him so much (I'm afraid to use the word love) ...and it is bad because he has to leave this summer to audition... oh well....and I don't know I am having a hard time trusting him which is ridiculous because I know he cares about me a lot... just because actions speak louder than words and during exams basically to make a long story short I had a nervous break down and numerous panic attacks and he took care of (we had just started dating too)BUT I am so afraid of rejection just because of recent past relationship experiences.... oh well... don't think of the future (I should learn from my mistakes...trust me) enjoy the present for it is a gift... oh whatever the fuck that saying says.

MEANWHILE this week, work, work , work. COFC studen run organization is doing "Sylvia" *(abouta dog) it is my dream role and I think I have a big chance at the role BUT the catch is my boyfriend is directing it... so in order to get it... I have to be TEN times better then anybody else because he is professional like that (that is why I love him so )... so I need to work my ass of this week before I go out of town.....AND Mr.Ivey is doing Once Upon a Mattress in the spring and I want FREd like wicked bad... I need to work on that now so I don't get distracted.

But I am super excited becasue tomorrow is Fabulous Greg night and alter clothes day and then THursday is shopping day with JENNY and my MOMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:)

2005-12-20T08:07:33Z

So I have fallen for a 23 year old.... AND

WE ARE DATING!!!!!!!! AND WE ARE HAPPY!!!! He is a senior and is the most talented actor in the COFC theatre department (and I am not being bias I swear.)

And the weird thing is that it makes no sense... I can't analyze this one... maybe that is a good thing.

I hope everyone is enjoying their holiday festivites!!! Feel free to call if people would like to play with me!!!!!!!!!XOXOXO

:(

2005-10-28T19:32:16Z

I hurt my knee at cabaret rehearsal... i hope I didn't really hurt it...but it won't stop aching.

Parents weekend starting today.

Filming arts award.

HALLOWEEN.

no can't write complete sentences.

ok

2005-10-26T10:44:49Z

So its 6:45 in the morning and I got in at 12 last night from rehearsal, literally. What am I doing so early in the morning (I woke up at 6 mind you) HISTORY HW. Ok this is high school all over again, it really is.

BUT I AINT COMPLAININ I SWEAR.

I am homesick right now, maybe because it is so early and I am freezing in my room.

I went to the thrift store and bought 40 dollars worth of winter clothes yesterday...and I got some fun scarves.

In case I don't update again BREAK A LEG at MODEL UN youse guys I love you all!

:-D

2005-10-25T04:04:51Z

The swing dance this Saturday was a dream come true.

Imagine a big band composed completely of high school arts students who actually knew what they were doing. An amazing ella fitzgerald in the making.... swing dancers who knew how to swing....and WHO ASKED ME TO DANCE......4 and a half hours of pure old movie magic... that is what it was. And then AFTER THAT I got to sit on the roof for two hours with Abby and talk like we used to. This weekend was magic.

Back to reality this week...but I am less stressed this week already as I have plans for Halloween. I am going to a drama party as Snow White...sexy Snow White mind you.

Cabaret is coming along very well. I adore Mr.Ivey so much. He is my heroe.

I really need winter clothes... I am freezing my ass of literally....well not literally... I wish literally.... my ass gets in the way of ballet it is so frustrating. It is a catch 22, Cabaret calls for soooooooo much booty and ballet calls for no booty. I almost broke into tears of frustration because of it in ballet today.... I was having so much trouble pulling in everything at the barre because of my FRIGGIN ASS.... and so I get to Cabaret rehearsal in my balletic mode and it is "More hips more hips." Alas....but I how I love stressing over things like Ballet and my butt! :-D

Life is good... I like being able to start a new. Turn over a new leaf and be known only as a dancer...... hehhehe I can't wait to see the reaction out of people when they know I can sing and act too.

I am overwhelmed

2005-10-21T19:36:32Z

I am overwhelmed. How did I manage to get myself so busy physically,emotionally, and mentally?

On a happier note I have all A's and B's according to midterms. A's in all my theatre related courses and B's in all my gen ed's.

So the music major guy I liked.... totally a player. Males suck....except for the good ones. So how come all the good guys are dead, gay, unavailable, and far away?

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm I hope to god I am not falling for someone. Stupid girly Elizabeth.

But on the whole life is pretty good. I go swing dancing tomorrow night and Abby is coming into town to go with me. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:-D

2005-10-18T03:35:11Z

All I can do tonight is smile and giggle.

Today was a marvelous day.

:)

2005-10-17T03:37:35Z

I may or may not be in Columbia right now. And I may or may not be paying a surprise visit to RNE tomorrow.

:-D

:)

2005-10-07T11:58:38Z

Life is marvelous right now. I am having an excellent week.

I had a kick ass voice lesson yesterday and I got 7 callbacks for director's showcase.

I had a really good acting coaching session as well.

The boy I like kissed me this time. I think he likes me. It is too confusing to explain. Sheesh its never good to crush on older boys (don't worry he isn't that much older only 21.)

I have 3 callbacks today! Wish me luck!

Love, hugs, and kisses to all.

JESSICA POSNER I LOVE YOU I HOPE YOU HAD A FABULOUS BIRTHDAY WEEK.

bleh

2005-09-30T04:55:17Z

Damn it I am thinking about him again. I can't get him out of my mind.

And I was so friggin happy. Its ok maybe it is just a temporary thing.

I hope he is doing well and everything I don't want it to be like he's died or anything.

But at the same time...I really do have to pretend like he doesn't exist.

Or else... it hurts.

bleh and the guy I like.... I just don't know if he really likes me anymore.

STUPID BOYS.

ON another note though, I went salsa dancing and it was soooooooo much fun and I danced with this totally gorgeous guy for like 4 dances and I am in love with his dreaminess. Unfortunately I know I am just "baby doll cute" to him.

You can't win with the baby doll cute thing. Some guys dig it, others don't.

OH well gotta learn to love what ya have.

And I do. I am starting to get really comfortable with myself.

NOW TO GET HIM OUT OF MY FRIGGIN BRAIN.

:)

2005-09-29T04:05:59Z

Life is very good right now. I am incredibly busy... but I am loving charleston.

I met a boy who I like. I know he likes me. I kissed him. :)

I like to flirt a lot.

Most of the guys in the theatre department are straight and really cute.

I am learning so much.

I made a B on my first college math test.

I am in an opera, the ballet company, and Cabaret.

I love the faculty here.

I miss all of my RNE lovers though... and all of those who are far away from me.

I hope life is going well for you.

hmmm

2005-09-15T04:03:43Z

I think I want to be a Shakespearean actress.... hopefully that is how you spell it.

haha

2005-09-10T20:41:24Z

I am an apprentice to the Robert Ivey Ballet company. Can you believe that? I have never been in a ballet company in my life. And I get free dance classes whenever I can get a ride over to the studio. THIS ROCKS!!! Who'd a thunk?

wooo

2005-09-10T15:28:38Z

So Thursday night I went salsa dancing with a random group of people and my friend JEssica and Katie HOe. IT was awesome. We left at tenish and people were really salsa dancing for like an hour and a half. HOwever, around 11:45 it turned into more of a club and the dance floor was SOOOOOOOO crowded. That is when I left... since most of you know I am not into the whole dry humping orgy thing with random strangers... maybe with my friends but not with strangers.

All these random guys came up and asked me to dance (when people were salsaing [sp?])and they led me into these intricate turns and stuff.

Later this week I am going to go swing dancing too!!!!!!!!!!! And I think I found a boy who will go with me and be my partner (and he is gorgeous.) *sigh*

Last night I had a girl's night out with my roomie and housemate. It was fun... we saw the "Forty Year Old Virgin." Yea it was not the movie of my choice, but parts of it were funny.

I am starting to have more fun at college, but I really need to study ahead since the show is coming up and I will have rehearsal from 6-10 every night.

I audition for COFC's dance company today. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

:-D

2005-09-08T04:57:56Z

I love dancing. I am going to become such a kick ass dancer this semester. I am excited!

yet for another love sick entry

2005-09-07T01:15:43Z

Time heals everything
Tuesday
Thursday
Time heals everything
April
August
If I'm patient the break will mend
And one fine morning the hurt will end
So make the moments fly
Autumn
Winter
I'll forget you by
Next year
Some year
Tho' it's hell that I'm going through
Some Tuesday
Thursday
April
August
Autumn
Winter
Time heals everything
Time heals everything
But loving you!

...

2005-09-06T04:17:45Z

DOWN WITH LOVE.

CONCENTRATE ON CAREER.

A NEW LIFE.

BRAND NEW START.

ERASE MEMORY.

GET RID OF PAST FEELINGS.

I WILL BE HAPPY.

I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL FRIGGIN REHEARSALS START FOR CABARET.

wow

2005-09-02T19:52:32Z

I can't believe what is going on in New Orleans. It is insane. All my thoughts and and good wishes go out to all the families and people in distress.

My parents are coming down today and bringing my babies. hahahah only 2 weeks go by and they have to come visit me... can you believe it?

I am auditioning for the dance company next weekend. OH OH OH and I found out about local swing dance lessons that only cost 5 dollars a lesson. I am very excited.

I went and studied at the Citadel library with a housemate this past week. She begged me to go. It was a very interesting experience to say the least. It was like walking onto a movie set.

I miss and love everyone! Bon weekend!

yay

2005-08-31T19:38:27Z

I got a kit kat girl in cabaret. Yay!!! I think I was too young to be considered for Sally. The girl who got her is tall, leggy, blonde, gorgeous and a junior. She looks a lot older than me. I have never heard her sing though. I saw her in "The Tempest" and she was good.

Unfortunately rehearsals don't start until October 1'st... so I don't know what I am going to do with myself until then. I am auditioning for the dance company next weekend.

My parents are coming to Charleston this weekend and bringing Tiny to visit me. Awww I miss my babies sooo much.

well life sucks

2005-08-30T14:58:01Z

I didn't get called back for cabaret.
Although it doesn't mean I am not cast (or so it says on the call back list.)

whoopee.

I will remain professional and no one will know that this bothers me.